I had stopped believing in it until someone special came along. He managed to convince me that an online relationship was worth the risk, a long distance relationship was worth the risk, an international relationship was worth the risk... and considering I'd given relationships up altogether, he did manage to convince me that a relationship was worth the risk as well.
Don't ask me how, because I am still not quite sure. Whether its worth the risk in this case, will probably vary, whether you talk to me, or Water... *grins a bit* I say that just because she knows of the situation, since she is one of my closest friends.
My baby and I have had our ups, we started out knowing each other in fact, with downs... as both of us were in very turbulent points in our life, we clashed pretty bad. We did make it through that though. There is nobody on this earth who can make my entire body shake with fury and rage, and pure upset. And there is nobody on this earth who can turn me around from that, to a puddle of mush and laughter, either. I'd be arrogant enough to say that things with my significant other are probably far more difficult than most people's. Again its a case of real life interfering, but on a much larger scale than what could be deemed "normal" -- On a scale so large that in fact, my significant other's best friend commented to me one time that he was amazed that I was even still sticking around, and he asked me why. Why was I still in this whole situation neck deep? Because I love him, was my answer.
Do I enjoy the heartache? No. However, one thing I learned without even realizing it in some of my past relationships is that previously, I had a tendency to completely overlook the negative, and focus solely on the positive. I can't do that, in the end it only kills what is there. To love someone is to take the bad, along with the good, and so if I am consistently overlooking the bad, I have no right at all, to be focusing on the good. So for now, I sit, and I hurt, and I hurt, and I hurt... and while that may seem like there is nothing but hurt to some people, I do remember before when times were easier, and when it was a lot more positive. If I throw away everything that we share, just because of a few bumps in the road, then we had nothing, anyways. And I believe in what we have too much to simply piss it all away over what we're going through. We have had good times, we are having bad times, but I believe that if we stick through this, then there will be good times again. And the good times, ARE worth the wait.