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Do you ever feel like age is against you?


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I'm tired, so very tired. I have this odd sensation I've already lived too long.






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I've have a similar feeling sometimes. Especially when I really think about/realize how old my siblings and cousins are. To me they'll always seem like kids, but in reality some of'm are old enuff to be having significant others and such. I mean, shit, my youngest sister is almost 13! I feel ancient when I think of that. Feels like just yesterday I was changen her diapers....
just give me a minute, i'm thinking...

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I'm only 14 and the thought of how many years I might have before me is a depressing/scary thought. as so many say, I am too young to feel this old.

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heh, from the sounds of it though, you still have a chance. Get out now. Please, live your life, have fun, get off the computer. Go do something, anything. I'm 20, and I feel like I haven't done anything at all with my life, or those years. My mom is 54, and she wouldn't be around forever, even if I've only known her for 2 years.

I want to be a police officer, in NYC. I need two years of college, and my biggest fear is that, when I get there, I fail the test, or the school, or whatever. By that point, I'll have no other chance to upgrade the skills that I have, and will be of no use to any market.

And then of course, there is my kid to worry about.

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I'm 21 and I've felt old and tired of the bullshit of society since about the age of 7 when I wrote a very long essay about all the things wrong with the world...It still holds true now.

It's easy to feel like you've seen it all when you've paid such a close attention to the lives around you and experienced other people's pains and losses through empathy and seen a fair share of your own...But it has to be worth sticking around and striving to find something new even if you have to invent something new in order to do this. I fear I might have to invent a whole new viable way of life in order to provide for my future and possibly the future of a family yet to be...Whilst not sacrificing who I am to a desk job or the tedium of most forms of employment that sap the will and creativity that defines who I am.
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"It's easy to feel like you've seen it all when you've paid such a close attention to the lives around you and experienced other people's pains and losses through empathy and seen a fair share of your own..."

Yeah, and I stopped and looked back and said, I have no idea who i am or what I'm doing. I've been watching so many others I forgot myself.

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i turn twenty in one month...
i still feel young and healthy...
but emotionally i feel venerable...

it's all in how you look at things...if you wish to survive...you shall...
if already you're giving up...the answer should be self-explanatory...
fight onward...fight that tired feeling...it's an illusion...

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Well, for me, actually for the past three days, things ahve been looking up. I haven'tfelt tired despite the fact im actaully getting less sleep, but I know that tiredness is all in m yhead, that's why I consider myself emotionally and mentally tired. I dont claim to have seen it all or experienced it all. There a few things I hold hope for and remain living for. (Besides the fact that I will never commit suicide, it's a very selfish thing to do.) anyone else feel too old, and pustulant, I hope you can get the job you want.

"Please, live your life, have fun, get off the computer. *

Don't worry about that, I'm mainly online during the winter, during the summer I have manual labor and sports to look forward too ;)

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one of those stupid moments where music speaks to me:

Mr. Bungle - The Air-Conditioned Nightmare

Inside of me today
There is no one
Only asteroids and empty space
A waste

They're looking through the windows at me

Get me out of this air-conditioned nightmare
Rots your brain just like a catchy tune
You will hate life more than life hates you
Get me out of this, help me out of this air-conditioned nightmare

Burn all your mementos of me

Get me out of this air-conditioned nightmare
Rots your brain just like a catchy tune
You will hate life more than life hates you
Get me out of this, help me out of this air-conditioned nightmare

Walkin' on air
Up from the wheelchair
I'll find the suicide
That I deserve

Walkin' on sand
Forgotten where I am
But it's so comfortable
Here in the sun...

I only see rainbows
Now that the bandages are gone
Through my window, there

From the skyscrapers
Down to the submarines

Birds and fairies
Sanctuaries
Atop the rolling hills of hell

These words are sledgehammers
Of truth
That pound the iron heart
Of sin

Bloody smiling
Vandalizing
My wet dream is drying up

Walkin' on air
Up from the wheelchair
I'll find the suicide
That I deserve

Walkin' on sand
Forgotten where I am
But it's so comfortable
Here in the sun

Where's my rainbow?
Where's my halo?

There's my halo!

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Mr Bungle - Everyone I Went To High School With is Dead

Another summer rolls by
And I can't help but feel pain
All those familiar faces
Come back to haunt me again
Whether I hated their guts
Or hardly knew them at all
I always felt far away
Beside them there in the halls

My yearbook keeps me informed
My yearbook keeps me in line
Its an obituary
Gives me a concept of time
We've graduated and grown
From a real world once our own
Yet we have proven them wrong
By dropping off all along

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Faith No More - Falling To Pieces

Back and forth, I sway with the wind
Resolution slips away again
Right through my fingers, back into my heart
Where it's out of reach and it's in the dark
Sometimes I think I'm blind
Or I may be just paralyzed
Because the plot thickens every day
And the pieces of my puzzle keep crumblin' away
But I know, there's a picture beneath
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens...
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together
Layin' face down on the ground
My fingers in my ears to block the sound
My eyes shut tight to avoid the sight
Anticipating the end, losing the will to fight
Droplets of "yes" and "no"
In an ocean of "maybe"
From the bottom, it looks like a steep incline
From the top, another downhill slope of mine
But I know, the equilibrium's there
Indecision clouds my vision
No one listens
Because I'm somewhere in between
My love and my agony
You see, I'm somewhere in between
My life is falling to pieces
Somebody put me together

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The first Mr Bungle one was exactly what I feel about deskjobs..I saw what my dad became through his soul destroying career for the sake of being a providor for kids who can't appreciate his sacrifice because they've gained no love and no future from it...

It is society that is to blame for taking away financial security for those willing to spend their whole lives in the system doing their very best...Or rather those who control it...Maybe things are different in America...
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The first Mr Bungle one was exactly what I feel about deskjobs..I saw what my dad became through his soul destroying career for the sake of being a providor for kids who can't appreciate his sacrifice because they've gained no love and no future from it...

It is society that is to blame for taking away financial security for those willing to spend their whole lives in the system doing their very best...Or rather those who control it...Maybe things are different in America...

America sucks. Don't come here. When I saw you for the first time, on a friends cam (the_grim_faerie) I was shocked. I never knew that more then three goths existed within several door lengths. It was strange really. I have maybe one goth friend, who lives about two hours away.


As for society blankets and what not... well, heh, no place is safe for that one. I commend your countrys attempt at... Socialism? What do you call it? And I've watched your health care fall apart. Here in the states, welfare and SS is falling apart as well, and while it may not effect my mother, who will be dead soon anyways, it will effect me in the future.So, to be honest, I don't see much security anywhere in the world, and the number of friends and people of my nature are dwindling. Its a scary new world indeed.


Well, there is the desk job, brat children and the high point of my day; masterbation in the morning shower.

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